You can look good when you are over 50!

When I grew up I kept hearing ‘You will gain weight in your 40th and 50th. It’s just what happens. There is no way around it. You just live with it. I heard it from my mom and my aunts and my grandma. They all had been slim in their 20th and 30th but now in their 40’s and 50’s they had gained 20 – 40 pounds they didn’t need or want. My sister just recently visited. Same as me, she is in her 50th and she told me that she gained about 15 pounds a couple of years ago without changing anything in her daily routine. She is active all day running her coffee shop; she eats healthy and she still gained the 15 pounds and 3 dress sizes. She said ‘I can’t do anything about it. It’s just how it is.’

When I got into my 40th I was curious…would I get the pounds? From my teens on my weight always ranged between 136 and 150 pounds. I am 5.7’ and 136 pounds feels really good. You might think 150 isn’t really overweight but for me it feels that way. It means I am round around my hips and belly and I can’t wear the clothing I really like. When I look at myself in the mirror I see a wobbly layer covering up who I really am and it just feels wrong to be hiding. When I weigh 150 pounds I am also 1 or 2 dresses sizes bigger. And then last but not least…if I made it from 136 to 150 pounds, I could easily make it from 150 to 170 and so on. It is really alarming.

This is where I am different from my sister and my aunts. My sister told me that ‘without changing’ she had gained the pounds and my aunts hadn’t changed anything either when they had gained their weight. They just kept living the same way they had lived before. I am different in the way that when I am at 150 pounds I am about ready to change anything really quickly to get to my lower weight again. And the one thing that my sister and my aunts didn’t want to do – change – is what is doing the trick for me each time. And each time it’s a different change that helps me get to my weight.

In my 30th I lost weight by starting to eat 5 – 7 times a day and smaller portions. But even with eating smaller portions more often a day I gained weight again in my 40th. So I bought a horse and up’d exercising to 5 times a week. At 49 I gained weight again even with eating smaller portions and riding 5 times a week so I started to working out with Ilana (check her out at Enerjoy Fitness in Scottsdale – she is the best). I added 2 – 3 workouts a week and started writing a food diary which Ilana reviewed every week. My weight dropped from 150 to 142 pounds but I was stuck there and couldn’t get to the 136 pounds I really wanted. So I did a juice and protein shake diet with multiple hydrotherapy sessions. My colon felt cleaner than ever and I got to 136 pounds. Being so clean helped me stay under 140 pounds for over a year. But then I gained weight again and got close to 150 pounds once again. So Ilana put me on a strict 1600 calorie a day food regimen and later Ilana introduced me to Isagenix which helps me stay at a great weight – not where I want to be but great.

All this said, it’s not just one change, it’s many changes that I have made and all the changes that worked for me I kept on doing. I never went back on them. I am expecting to have to do many more changes and I am so glad I have people like Ilana who help me. I also have to thank Bernadeane and Jim Strole again since they both inspire me to constantly change and live better. Change for the better is great and it is so overlooked in our society. Staying the same is so much more common but no-one wins anything with it. We don’t progress in our body and feeling good is so wonderful. It can never be valued enough.

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They’ve got it wrong

Friday night I drove to the People Unlimited event and listened to National Public Radio. As always, I can’t remember the specific show I was listening to nor the people it was about but I remember the topic. They discussed music. One of the question that was discussed was: ‘From an evolution point of view, why was music created?’ or ‘Why did human beings create music to begin with? Was it needed for survival?’

After looking at this questions from various angles, science came up with their answer. Their answer was that it was in fact not needed for survival. And that music had been created for one reason only and that reason was pleasure.

Here is the interesting thing…many composers and musicians didn’t like the scientists’ findings. They didn’t like that their life work’s meaning was to create pleasure. For some reason it made them feel angry and devaluated.

Here is where they got it wrong: Pleasure is the most important and essential thing. I don’t see any work that could be more important than creating pleasure and wellbeing. There can never be enough of it for anyone and there should be much more of it no matter how much pleasure we already experience in our day-to-day living.

I find it pleasurable to wake-up in the morning and talk to Otto about our unlimited life. It’s pleasure to see the sun come into my bedroom. It’s my pleasure to go to work. It’s pleasurable to eat. It is pleasurable to face a challenge and master it. It is my pleasure to be alive, to feel my heart beat, to breath in air and feel my lungs fill up with it. It’s pleasurable to interact with the people I work with every day. And there is so much more…

I personally feel that creating ‘pleasure’ for another person has saved lives, has ended wars, has made people want to live longer. Making someone feel good is the most meaningful work there is. Yes, we can have money that buys us the best nutrition and gives us a luxurious roof over our head, but if we don’t feel well it means nothing. Making another person feel that their life is pure pleasure is the most important work someone could do.

And this is where Bernadeane and Jim Strole are experts. And this is why for me they are the people who do the most important work there is. They cause people to feel good about who they are. They cause people to begin feeling the value of themselves. Religion and the family structure always put a system and a right way to be as the most important thing to achieve. At work we have to achieve goals to proof our value. But nowhere we are valuable just for the unique and powerful people we are. Powerful and irreplaceable.

Bernie and Jim are the reason why my life is now pure pleasure. Like many composers and musicians have lifted my spirits with their music, Bernie and Jim have given me the best pleasure of all. They have transformed my life and they keep transforming it. And at the same time I feel I am transforming theirs. Where before my life was full of right and wrongs, it is now like a symphony of instruments playing together and producing the most beautiful sound for me and others to enjoy. It’s the music of the cells of my body who are vibrating with Bernie and Jim’s like musicians who play together and create the most beautiful sound there is. The sound of a person and a body who has no end.

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I found a short-cut…

Since I can think I have had a very tight lower back. My lower back wouldn’t necessarily hurt but I was limited in my range of motion. E.g. running was so uncomfortable that I simply cut it out of the list of things I would do. Or standing in line would hurt if it was longer than 2 minutes. It wasn’t such a big problem, since I could deal with it by simply moving around while waiting. Or sitting was uncomfortable but I looked for chairs that supported me well and I was able to cope. All of this didn’t worry me too much, since I thought it’s normal to be uncomfortable in that way and I thought most people who are not yogi’s have some discomforts every day anyways. Sometimes I would get real back pain and when this would happen I would start doing stretching exercises and go see a chiropractor and I would be fine again.

This was until last year. Last year I was doing stretching exercises every day, I was seeing a chiropractor consistently, I received massages every other week and despite all of this I started to have really bad back pain. And the back pain got worse with everything I did to get rid of it. My stretching, my adjustments from my chiropractor and the massages I got all of it made it worse and not better. I finally got through the worst of it by taking Advil and getting acupuncture. But the truth is, I never really got all the way well. I always had a little bit of pain. Sometimes it felt like it was gone but then I did a wrong move and it was back again. I was really frustrated.

About 6 weeks ago I started going to a new chiropractor. My horse had started getting adjustments from Doctor Stires and he really saw improvements. Since Doctor Stires also treated people I thought I give’ll him a try as well. What could I loose. What he suggested was decompression therapy. Decompression therapy seemed to make sense so I agreed and we started the treatment plan. After 3 weeks with 3 times a week of decompression  and adjustments he sent me home with my decompression machine and instructions to continue a big piece of the treatment plan on my own.

My new routine is very time consuming: 3 days a week I do the decompression and 3 days a week I do exercises that stretch and build muscles. The entire program takes 35 – 45 minutes a day pretty much every day of the week. That’s a lot of time to fit into my busy schedule. I thought my new chiropractor obviously hadn’t heard about the ‘shortcut’ or ‘get to your goal faster’ approach which all of us so desperately look for.

But to tell  the truth… the 35 – 45 minute routine I now have to add to my daily activities is the short-cut. I am really starting to feel a difference in my lower back. I started running a little in the morning and guess what, I get out of breath but I do not hurt – and I am only starting…

So what is a 35 – 45 minutes routine for a couple of months compared to 45 years of discomfort? It’s very little effort and a real short-cut.

Lots of people look for short-cuts at the wrong place. The real short-cut is what delivers the results. How much will my life improve every single day, 24 hours a day, for an unlimited number of more years to come with only a 35 – 45 minute investment a day right now?  I am so happy I got something that helps me and doing what it takes for it is so much fun and so worth it. It’s the real short-cut.

I love building my body, it builds my spirit and soul and wellbeing. It makes me a better person. It makes me greater for myself and others.

Where others build a career and a legacy, I build my body and I am so happy to be so successful at it and that I found people to help me with it. I have a lot to show for. It’s mostly my wellbeing and me feeling so good. What a wonderful life to live. I am so thankful to Bernie and Jim who are the most radical inspiration for me to do so. It’s essential for me to have Bernie and Jim and so many others in my life who show me a life that is so well worth living, a life that sees no end.


I have no problems…

I am sitting in my beautiful home and am thinking about all the amazing people I have in my life. Jim and Ilana were over for dinner Saturday night and we talked a lot about how well we are doing. How deeply we appreciate each other. What great vacations we have planned, what great foods we eat, how we have a future for us with more money, more wellbeing, how much we are touched by all the amazing people who feel us so deeply and are building this unlimited life with us.

About a week ago, I heard someone call Jim Strole the most positive person in the world. When I had him over for dinner that evening I could feel Jim’s positivity impact me.

The reason why I have no problems is because I have so many positive people around me. People like Jim Strole. 

But what is positive?

Positive is not that we have nothing bad happen to us, real positivity is how we deal with the good and bad things that happen in our lives. Real positivity is when we use everything we experience to make us stronger. Real positivity is when we really enjoy the good things in our lives and know that they happen to us because it’s who we are and that they are not coincidental. Real positivity is when we have something bad happen (like someone close to us dies, or we loose money, or we get robbed, etc.) and we know we can handle it. Real positivity is when these bad things don’t make us feel like we are bad people.

Bernie and Jim always say that it’s not personal when people treat us poorly. In the past I understood what they were saying but I still felt miserable and kind of responsible for it when something bad happened to me. But the truth is that it’s not personal when someone runs all over me or manipulates me or robs me. It’s not personal at all! The people who treat me poorly are usually very negative people and they act it out with anyone they meet. I just happened to be one of them. In the end it has nothing to do with me and it for sure doesn’t make me a bad person.

There is one lesson I have to learn from these bad situations though! This lesson is that I have to learn how to stay away from bad people. I also have to learn how to get away from them quickly if they do happen to get in my way.

I have no problems, because I have people in my life that are honest and want the best for me in every way. They don’t just wish the best for me but also go out of their way to make it happen every day.

Even though my work comes with a lot of different people from all walks of life and with all kinds of agenda’s, I am getting better to go with the strengths of each person and to stay out of the way of trouble. I feel the better I am getting at staying out of the way of trouble and the better I am doing at taking in all the great things that happen every day, the happier I am.

I simply have no problem. It’s hard to grasp because it means that there is nothing left to fix. I have a lot of time on my hands, now that I no longer worry so much and there is nothing left to fix. Time I can use to do things I really like doing. Things like writing this blog or getting closer to the many people I truly love and care about.


The best super attitude on the planet

A little over a week ago Matt Monarch launched the best superfood on the planet. He said that a little bit of it is so potent that it has the power to cure cancer, arthritis, HIV and protect from Alzheimer Disease. He called it the best superfood ever where nothing like it had ever been seen on the planet. And there were so many clinical studies proofing it that of course I ordered this superfood and can’t wait for it to arrive. Who doesn’t want to try the best superfood ever 🙂

But what’s the best superfood when you have a shitty attitude? It’s been known for a long time that what you think impacts your wellbeing and health. And there is something impacting our health even more than our negative thoughts, it’s all the destructive things we do to ourselves every day.

You are destructive to yourself if you feel you have no future because you are boxed in; or if you don’t allow yourself to feel all of your emotions because they are too scary; or if you push back people who are good to you but choose to hang out with abusive people; or if you see everything and everyone against you all the time; or if you only trust your dog and cat but can’t trust people; or if you feel guilty about having too much fun; or if you think you don’t deserve the best for yourself; or if you are modest and put yourself in second place behind others all the time; or if you can’t accept compliments; or if you feel you have to be loyal to people who treat you poorly because you once made a promise to do so; or if you feel you can’t speak up for yourself or others when you see something around you that’s not right; or if you want to look like a movie star more than wanting to look like yourself; or if you love cereal for breakfast but eat eggs because it’s what your family likes; of if you want to earn millions and you think you will never be good enough to earn them; or if you want to be treated well by your intimate partner but settle for just anyone because you don’t want to be lonely; or if you feel incomplete because you don’t have a boy friend, girl friend, husband or wife; or if you feel depressed when you get what you want because you think it won’t last; or if you can’t laugh out loud because you are too concerned about disturbing others; or if fun is just not part of your day; or if you feel sad or a so called ‘negative’ emotion and you feel wrong for doing it. 

And there is so much more… All these small actions we do every day consciously or unconsciously are self destructive and will cause the very thing we want to heal with the superfood. Don’t get me wrong, I am not against superfoods I love them. But I also know that I will only feel really great, if I stop everything I do that is destructive to my person.

And I haven’t even mentioned the most destructive thing ever. And most people do it. And it’s far more destructive than all the attitudes and actions I mentioned above. And even though there are a lot of white papers and novels and blogs about things we do that are destructive to ourselves and how to stop them, there is not much written about the most destructive thing ever. People do everything they have in their power to avoid feeling the destruction, yet it is so obviously unhealthy. You don’t have to be a doctor or scientist to see it.

So what is it? The most destructive attitude and action ever is that people feel they have to die. No matter how healthy, how much money, how many superfoods, how many spa treatments, how many rich and great relationships, very few have ever questioned the most destructive thought and feeling there is. Which is the thought and feeling that humans have to die.

Think about it… you focus on an area in your body that is not doing well and you visualize it being well. I’ve done it many, many times and it always works. You can get rid of a head-ache in no time with a visualization exercise. It works like a charm. Now think about what you do to your cells if you always give them the message that they have to die some day and that they won’t be able to duplicate and renew any longer. And if you don’t say it out loud, be sure that you are telling it to your cells unconsciously all the time. Don’t fool yourself it’s the most unhealthy attitude there is. It can only be broken by making a conscious decision to not die, to feel physically better all the time and to see no end to the cells.

The afterlife is the most promoted thing by pretty much every religion on this planet, but I think it’s time that we promote the life right here on this planet! It’s the biggest high you’ve ever experienced. Once you start doing it, you will feel the energy boost it give you. You will see it makes you feel phenomenal. It also makes it easy to change the seemingly unending list of destructive things we can do to ourselves. The benefits are huge, start today with your new journey that sees no end for yourself! 

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Life can be painful so why would I want it unlimited?

Yesterday, I went to a talk with Matt Monarch. Matt is the owner of the biggest raw food online store in the world. He has been eating totally raw for many years, yet what he was promoting yesterday was not eating totally raw but eating in a way that brings you ultimate health. I like ultimate health, I like a future with no pharmaceutical drugs. I like a future without Alzheimer disease. I like a future without heart disease. I like future without arthritis. I like a future without overweight. I like a future without scoliosis. I like a future that sees no death. I like a future of unending complete wellbeing. Wellbeing far beyond the health we know right now. I feel it is possible to feel actually better and better physically and experience a wellbeing better than anyone ever has. I feel this is my future and I am already living it. I liked Matt’s talk because he is a genius in researching products that make you feel really really good. So I enjoyed his talk and once again walked away with a handful of new products that I can’t wait to try.

Even though I liked Matt’s talk about foods, I liked the last part of his talk even better. It wasn’t about food. It was about spirituality. I  often don’t like it much when people talk about spirituality because they tend to use it as their way to not feel their bodies. To get away from their physicality. To deny it. I don’t like denying my body or other people’s bodies because it is the most destructive thing there is. People do it a lot in may different ways and one of these ways is spirituality and I hate it. Yes, we feel pain and sometimes it might feel that the longer we live the more pain we feel. And yes, we feel very uncomfortable sometimes and yes, this discomfort in our bodies. We feel it in our hearts, veins, muscles, emotions, nervous systems. And yes, it seems like the easiest way out to get as far away from it as possible. But where most people want to get away from the pain in their bodies as quickly as they can, I actually like it. I like it because having pain allows me to see areas that need attention and change and I love that I get loud signals for it.

Back to Matt’s talk…I only stayed for the first part of Matt’s talk about spirituality and I actually liked it. It was totally different from what I had expected. It was actually about the body and not about how to avoid it. What he said was simple. It is about focus. If you feel discomfort in your body or if you have a disease, stare it down. Go to bed early, feel the area in your body where you feel discomfort and stare it down.

Otto asked me at home, so how does this work? I usually have a hard time staring down anything or anyone but there are things that deserve to be stared down – like people who are intimidators. People who are disrespectful and walk all over me deserve to be stared down. People who cheat on me or are dishonest deserve to be stared down. And the same way these people deserve to be stared down, the symptoms in my body that are caused by the emotional stress from being treated poorly deserve to be stared down.

I loved this piece of Matt’s talk and I am enthusiastically going to become an expert in staring down bad things. I love having no end and my future just became better. I know I will always meet people like Matt who make it better. Thanks Matt!

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Someone sat me down and told me the truth…

On Saturday I listened to a radio show. In that show they interviewed a person who had healed a 15 year old boy from a skin disease through hypnotizing him. When trying to do so again later on he was never able to heal anyone with that disease again. After healing the boy the entire medical community had gotten excited because without knowing it he had healed what had been an incurable disease. The experts in that area told him that what he had done with hypnosis had been impossible. When later on asked why he couldn’t repeat the healing, he said that after hearing from experts that it had been impossible to heal this disease something in him changed. He unconsciously had taken it on that it was impossible for him now too.

Today something similar happened to me. But instead of being told I could not do something impossible that I had already done, I was told the opposite. I was told that what had been impossible until now was now possible. I was told I was no longer dying. I was told by an expert and the number one authority in physical immortality BernaDeane that I was not dying. That this was a done deal. And same as the person who had healed the boy felt something change in him after the ‘experts’ had talked to him, I felt I changed as well. I felt I wasn’t dying and that this was real right now. I felt a tingling all over my body, I felt energy I had never felt before and I felt my organs alive and very active.

When driving home later tonight, I tried to wrap my mind around what just had happened. I wanted to explain it so bad. I wanted to grasp it in my mind to make sure I could retain this amazing experience and that it would last forever. But I knew at the same time that it wasn’t a knowledge thing. It was something I could only feel and experience and my mind could never explain it. Never ever. I know this feeling will bring me to new places and there will be many more physically immortal experiences. Experiences of my body not dying, my cells not just rejuvenating but being ongoing without an end far beyond rejuvenation. I feel I will never see death.

What’s wrong with me?

In 1996 I moved to Scottsdale, AZ from Munich, Germany to join BernaDeane and Jim Strole in building a physically immortal community. This physically immortal community is now growing every day and it is called People Unlimited.

When meeting Bernie and Jim in Munich, they talked to a Susanna in me that had been deeply hidden behind different personalities. They talked to a Susanna that truly felt like me. No-one had ever talked to her before. She had been there always but she had been deeply buried behind personalities and right and wrongs. She was so hidden that I didn’t even remember her any more. At the same time I watched them reach many others in the same way.

The best moments in my life are feeling this Susanna that feels so me and so authentic and I get to experience this more and more all the time. The best moments are also when I see other’s get in touch with themselves while moving free from all the images society had taught them to be. It makes me feel so close to them which feels awesome and I know they feel awesome as well.

Bernie and Jim and the People Unlimited community which is growing every day is the best place in the world and I recommend everyone I meet to join as members. At least everyone I meet a little closer. Yet, I have had only very few accept my invitation to check out a People Unlimited event.

Why is that?

What is wrong with me?

I have felt very wrong for loving something so much but not being able to bring the value of what I am experiencing across to others. I meet a lot of people. Really amazing people I really adore and care about. I feel they would benefit from being a People Unlimited member a lot.

So what’s wrong with me not being able to bring my point accross?

I feel there will never be an answer to this question. But in an indirect way there is an answer:

1. I am stopping immediately to feel wrong. Even though it feels wrong that I do not bring a lot of guests to People Unlimited events, it feels even worse to feel wrong about myself in it. Who would want to be invited by a person who feels wrong about themselves to begin with?

2. I need to let go of ‘needing’ to bring people. I do need more people that want to live so all out that they forget seeing death for themselves and others but I don’t ‘need’ to bring guests. I knew this part but for some reason knowing and doing it are two very different things. I really need to let go and just enjoy the people I meet.

3. I need to ensure that I am myself. I need to talk freely about what I feel and enjoy in every way including my unlimited life. I need to tell people how much I truly care about them. I need to just enjoy myself doing it. The truth is that it is a lot of fun talking about unlimited living and it is the biggest joy to admit caring about someone so much that you don’t ever want to be without them. It’s better than a cup of coffee, a piece of chocolate cake, great shoes, a great vacation and as good as a one million dollar bonus (which I haven’t received yet but will some day).

I had to run away quickly…

Yesterday I visited Lois in the assisted living home she lives in right now. When visiting her I looked her in her eyes and I touched her hands and I held her body and felt her aliveness and I felt no age. I felt intense electricity run through her and me when we were touching and I felt no end for both of us in it.

At the same time I saw what it does to you when you are in a place physically where you can’t walk freely, where you can’t go where you want to go spontaneously, where you have to be concerned with all the things that don’t go right with your body. When you are confined to a small room, when you are dependent on the people of the assisted living home to get a shower, who might or might not have the time to do so in a given day. I felt what it meant to have your own imagination as your largest entertainment but you don’t have the strength to participate in the adventures of running around in the world with other people. I felt how it is to have to eat ‘Assisted Living’ food when the Assisted Living facility wants to get more profitable and mostly serves food that has been processed so much that you can’t even recognize what it is you are eating. And for all of it you pay the price of a luxury hotel.

Aging sucks and when leaving Lois I got in my car and I felt I had to run away from aging and death. I felt I had to run away so quickly that I pushed the sports button in my Fiat that makes me feel the extra speed when I hit the gas pedal. It felt good to move so quickly. I didn’t feel I had to get away from Lois – it actually felt great to hold her and to be with her – but I felt I had to run away from aging and death.

It’s easy to feel that we want to run away from old age and death. I see a lot of people feeling it but then at the same time most people don’t think they have a choice and they prepare to be in a nursing home some day. They don’t see that running away from aging and dying can be real. They don’t see that the electricity in their bodies – which is the electricity I felt with Lois – is such an intense force that can take us to a new life together. A life that sees changes but no death.

I am in my 50th and I can feel the downward feeling of the beginning of aging. It feels like a strong voice all over my body that tells me ‘it goes down from here on’, ‘there are things in your body that fall apart and you can never change them and you have to go down with them’.

I say ‘NO’ to these voices and I run away from them quickly.

Running away from death and aging is the best. It leaves me with the excitement of looking toward an unlimited future. It leaves me with an appreciation of my body and an excitement that fires up the electricity in me. It leaves me thankful to the people who I have in my life who will not die and I see them get better and better in every way in their 40th, 50th, 60th, 70th. I have lots of these people around me every day. BernaDeane and Jim Strole are 2 of them and I am thankful for their inspiration every day.

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I learned something unexpected today!

Today I learned something new. It was unexpected. Once I learned it, I felt I should have always known it. Once I learned it, it felt familiar. But still I had never heard of it and I had never seen it or I had never thought about it. Otto – who is a Genius Coach – always says genius is simple and a short cut and what I learned today was simple and a short cut and genius.

What I learned today I learned from BernaDeane.

During our People Unlimited event, Bernie talked about an experience she had early on in her life.

Bernie talked about being engaged to a man whom she had dated for several years. She had gotten engaged, not because she felt he was the right man for her but because she felt he was a good man. Then she met a person who swept her of her feet and she broke her engagement.

She knows the marriage would have been disastrous for them both and she needed not to follow through with it. At the same time this break-up caused her to have a nervous break-down. She felt how much she had hurt this man that she couldn’t take it. She knew she couldn’t hurt another person like that ever again. She also knew that she couldn’t be with anyone for a while. She had to dig deeper into herself to have an experience as to what it would take to be with someone and be true, inspiring, full of soul, passionate and most of all to create a togetherness that is building, forever and without the hurt of separation. This is a togehterness that is not very common in this world and yet it should be the world all of us should live in.

So what is it that I learned from Bernie today? I had experienced break-ups from a couple of men I really loved. I really loved these men and when they broke-up with me, I cried for a long time. What broke my heart wasn’t the break-up, it was the coldness they treated me with. I looked them up on the internet just a couple of weeks ago. They had become somewhat famous as artists or musicians and they looked serious and shut down. There was no soul in their eyes. I couldn’t see any passion and I could not see the spark they had had when I dated them. I am happy they have broken up with me because I could have never found the amazing life I am living now in the People Unlimited community if we would have stayed together.

Listening to Bernie today, taught me how to feel people deeper. It taught me how to love them, care for them, be passionate about them, adore them, be close to them without ever having to hurt them. It’s a life without hurting each other that is forever changing and unfolding and building. It does not need a marriage license or a blessing from a pastor but it needs the conscience of really feeling each other. Not the image of each other but really feeling each other bodies.  

I love Bernie so much and I adore her so much for the deep caring person she is. I adore her for the stand she takes for human interaction that is building. She shows me how to live the life I always wanted. It’s not a life where the 10 commandments give me guidelines on how to live. It’s a life where my own conscience guides me to a higher life. It’s a life that feels religious but knows no god. It’s a life that feels spiritual but doesn’t care about the universe. It’s a life that is full of joy but it does not come from the many pretty things I buy every day. It’s a life where the joy comes from the people around me. People like Bernie who care about me so much, who live so free, who are closer to me than any man I’ve ever been with.