After a 2-day break from writing a blog I am back. I did fly to the East Coast (from Phoenix) yesterday to see my clients this week. I had to get a presentation done over the weekend for one of the client meetings and we also had an amazing People Unlimited event. On top of this I had to get my hair done and my nails done and pack for another trip I am going on right after I come back from the East coast and my horse needs daily recovery training from an injury he had a long time ago. So – with all of this going on I got overwhelmed and anxious.
When driving to the airport yesterday, I had to take deep breaths to calm down.
It feels weird to feel so anxious after the amazing People Unlimited event we had over the weekend. Especially Bernie and Jim’s expressions impacted me. I don’t know if you have ever experienced that someone talks to you and you understand all the words but the meaning of what was said goes beyond your understanding. This is how Bernie and Jim’s expressions felt this weekend. It felt like “what did just happen to me?” I felt like my life just changed and I don’t even know how. I love this feeling. I know there are always new insights coming from it. Usually they come days later when I notice that I feel different about a certain situation. Now that I am sitting in my hotel room on the East coast and I am taking a little break this morning before a busy day, I feel excited about the new feelings I am going to feel.
I’ve been anxious all my life. In the beginning of my life I didn’t know it was anxiety. I just thought this is how life is. I didn’t know you could be free of it because I didn’t know it was wrong. After our PUI weekend event this weekend, I was able to feel how anxious I was and how wrong it is because I know a life without anxiety now. I know there will be a time when I will be free of anxiety even if I have so much going on. I know there will be a time when I can trust that everything will work itself out and the things that don’t work themselves out I don’t really need. I know there will be a time when I feel my aliveness so much that I know nothing will take my life even if it feels a lot at the moment.