I feel down today…

Today is a day I feel I am running against obstacles everywhere. Mostly people obstacles. People I am working with seem so far away and it’s hard to communicate with them. I love my job but today is a day where I feel everyone is working in their own silo and there is just no flow. We are working on preparing several important client meetings next week and we could do so much better if we would listen to each other and if we would flow with each other. Without a flow I get tense and anxious. I am not the only one who feels down in my company. Lots of the people I admire and respect for the great work they do and for the great team player they are have resigned or are telling me they are going to resign in the next couple of months. Not exactly sure when but it’s sure that they do not want to hang around. So I am down today. It’s depressing.

I like it much better when people build each other. I find that there are very few people who have the true talent to build another person. There are people who give you the feeling that you can move a mountain and that you are tremendously valuable and essential to them. And then there are people who can only see themselves. These people see you as competitor and they feel threatened by you and you can do nothing right for them.

The people I like best are the people who genuinely want me to thrive. I genuinely want people to thrive. I don’t feel I am better or worse than others. I just feel we are doing different things complementing each other to get great things accomplished together. I know I can only do a piece of the puzzle and that I need others in order to be successful at what I do. I am an account manager and I am successful when my clients are extremely happy, so happy that they simply do not even want to look at the competition. So happy that they only want to work with me and the company I represent. I love being successful and I love being paid well for it.

But since I am representing the company and everyone else in it, I can only be as good as we all are together. It’s frustrating to see how people fight each other more than wanting to do the right thing for the client. Sometimes it makes it hard for me to breath.

Having Bernie and Jim in my life makes me privileged because I know how it feels to be cared for. I mean really cared for. Bernie and Jim genuinely care for me all the time for over 20 years now. They care personally for me. No matter if they have 2000 people around them or just 30, they always make me feel important. I’ve seen Bernie and Jim go through the most difficult times in their lives and they cared for me. I’ve seen Bernie and Jim experience the greatest success and they care about me. I am with them now for over 20 years and they have never withdrawn or stopped communicating with me or stopped caring for me. Not even for a minute.

My parents sometimes stopped talking to each other for several days because they didn’t get along and it was an ice cold feeling at home. Everyone was depressed until they made up and spoke again. In the past Otto and I used to not find the right words to express our feelings to each other There were times when we spoke only the superficial things and not what really mattered to us. With Bernie and Jim I’ve never experienced this. They have always kept all communication open. I feel so cared for by them. I feel more cared for by them than any other person in my life. And I care for them too. When I am really honest with myself I care for them the same way they do for me, without any breaks. I care for them when I have great things happen to me and when things are not so great and I feel down like today. It just feels great to live an honest life where nothing separates me from others. And its a 2-way situation. It only works when everyone does their part. Otto and I are communicating now without any breaks everything to each other. There are more and more people who I feel close to on a daily basis and this makes me feel so rich. I am thankful to be alive and will never die. I am proud of who I am and of the life I am creating for myself and others around me.

Find out more about myself, Otto and Bernie and Jim and join us for one of our People Unlimited events in Scottsdale AZ or come to our summer celebration event in San Diego. It’s really not about attending an event but about meeting people who genuinely care and who want you to be with them for always. Www.peopleunlimitedinc.com

The pro’s and con’s of being in your 50s

I am 3 years into my 50th now and it has been an adventure. In my 40th I thought my life was on a great track and that I was set-up well for all the years to come. But then the 50th hit and it all changed. I had heard about midlife crisis and never understood why people experienced it. This is the kind of ignorance I had all the way up to my 50th. For example I couldn’t see why people in their 50th all of a sudden don’t wear bikinis any longer or they completely discard of tank tops and short sleeve t-shirts to only wear long sleeve clothing. My aunt was the first person I met who, when she hit her 50’s, insistent that her arms did no longer have the look that they deserved to be displayed in public. I couldn’t imagine what could be so ugly about the arms that they no longer deserved to be seen but I could never find out because I couldn’t see them any longer. Pretty much up to my 50th I had absolutely no sense for what it means when your body starts changing and you feel like you have no control over it.

Everything changes so quickly and so irreversibly that it can scare the hell out of you. All the feelings of being set-up well in my 40th went right out of the window when I started to gain weight and even when I lowered my daily calories I kept gaining it. When my doctor started to look at my annual check-up for the signs of loss in bone density, cancer and high cholesterol and blood pressure and anything that was only off a little bit was now a sign of a fatal disease. High blood pressure was now the sign for a future stroke, an extra dense area in my breast on my mammogram was the sign of breast cancer and I would play with my life if I wouldn’t get a biopsy. His communication to me was clear ‘You are now in your 50th and your final days are numbered and high cholesterol, high blood pressure, cancer will be part of it.’ Now I understand, just going to the doctor can be enough reason to be in a mid-life crisis in your 50th. The outlook they have for you is depressing.

So here is the good news about being in my 50th: I get to stand out from the crowd. I’ve been around long enough to kind of know what is bullshit and what is real and I can make my own choices. I no longer have to follow along with the simple way of life and what society has laid out for me.

When my doctor told me I needed to have a biopsy for a 2 mm high density area in my breast, I did a lot of research and didn’t just go with it. I felt it was a too aggressive approach getting my breast cut open and having a piece of metal put in to mark a spot that they just couldn’t evaluate in the mammogram and ultra sound because it was too dense. I decided to wait for 6 months, get another ultra sound and if something really dangerous like cancer was going on in that area I would see it immediately. I personally don’t feel it but it’s always good to know for sure. I started to do some research around hormones and worked on balancing them and changed not my calorie intake but the quality of foods I eat and started to lose weight pretty much immediately.

It’s glorious when you can beat the statistics and you feel really good when you should be in the middle of your midlife crisis. It’s an exhilarating feeling when you feel great physically when you should be depressed about the unavoidable decaying of yourself. It’s one of the best feelings when you go a different way.

I am going to go to Costa Rica this summer and it’s going to be hot there and I will take the risk of displaying my entire body in a bikini. I will enjoy looking at my curves and body when I am walking along the beach and when I am sun bathing next to the pool. I can’t wait. It will feel great.

I love my life. It feels great. I know I wouldn’t have it if it weren’t for the constant inspiration of Bernadeane and Jim Strole. They stimulate me every day with living a life that is going up and up and up in the most phenomenal way. Bernie has been around for well over 70 years and Jim for well over 60 years and I see them doing better physically now than ever. I know I will be with them when they are in their hundreds and they will be better then compared to now. What inspires me most is how real they are with what’s going on with them. They are real with their emotions, with the test results they receive from doctors and most of all with how they feel their own bodies and they take action to build themselves better all the time. I’ve learned a lot from them. They teach something no one teaches. They teach a way of life that has no end and it’s so much fun and joy to live that way. I only recommend it.

Today I made my mom angry

Today I made my mom angry and I am proud of it.

My mom lives in a small town in Germany. She lives with my sister, Ulrike, and my sister’s boyfriend, Dietmar, in the house her grandparents built in the late 18 hundreds. It’s a great big house with a large garden. My mom is a landscape architect in her profession and she and my dad transformed the garden to a living piece of art. The art is dynamic and changes as the year progresses from spring to autumn. My mom just had her 85th birthday and she still keeps up the garden art. I love when I get to visit in summer because the lush garden is like a huge colorful canvas and I can sit right in the middle of it and get to enjoy it.

And here is how I made my mom angry and why I am proud of it.

I spoke to my mom on the phone and she mentioned that her knee is getting worse and worse and she might not be able to work in her garden any longer. She had had knee surgery several years ago and where most people do much better after the surgery she actually did worse. She saw many doctors after her surgery and all of them told her that her knee looked good and they couldn’t find anything wrong. Yet she felt tremendous pain and it was hard for her to walk more than 15 minutes.

Now she told me that soon she might not be able to walk at all. I felt for her and mentioned, there must be something that can be done. This is when the conversation got tricky. My mom mentioned that she had seen once again another specialist who actually found what was wrong and how it could be done better now. But he wouldn’t give any guarantees. I was excited about it and told my mom that doing anything possible was better than not being able to walk any longer. My mom responded that now being in her late 80’s she felt she only had a little longer to live and that it wasn’t worth it. This got me to respond without thinking in a really intense manner that left my mom quiet and she ended our conversation pretty much right after. My mom and I love to talk and I knew that I had upset her.

This is what I told my mom: “Every single minute of your life is precious and worth it to improve. Even if – what I don’t hope – you would only have 1 more year to live, it would be worth it to do anything that makes that year the best year you can have. A year with working in your garden; a year with doing trips to see different places; a year where you can continue to drive your car; a year where you can continue to go to concerts and see art exhibitions. A year where you can walk and do all the things you love.”

The truth is that I feel the sooner my mom can no longer do the little walking she can do now, the less time she will have to live and I simply don’t like.

I am proud I feel so intensely about my mom’s life. My life with her is getting better all the time. Where I barely had any communication with my mom when growing up, we now enjoy each other in so many different ways.

After speaking so intensely to my mom, I could feel her uncomfortable with my loud and definite talk. In the past I would have felt guilty for speaking so loud and definite, now I feel proud for who I am and for how precious I find my mom. I feel that everyone deserves to feel well no matter how many years on this planet. For me my mom is not ‘old’, for me she is as precious as a child and her life is as valuable.

I don’t feel deterioration is acceptable and we can do a lot for not having to experience it. The truth is, the body is amazing and responds to all the actions we take to build ourselves and wanting to live amazingly. Just eating better and doing exercise usually does wonders really quickly. We can’t take ourselves for granted. Above all, the feeling that we are worth it to live without an end is the best we can do for ourselves. It builds our immune system, our bones, it helps keep up our muscle tone and the elasticity in our skin. Feeling no end for our bodies makes us digest the food we eat better and makes us transform really phenomenally when we do exercises. It helps our organs to be more efficient and it simply feels great.

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Money well spent…

Everyone around me knows: I like to spend money. I like making money and I like spending it. I like spending it on clothing, furniture, my horse and riding, my dogs, Otto, vacations. Lately I have discovered supplements or so called superfoods. They make me feel high and I love spending money on them. I just like all the things that are pleasurable and it feels great to spend money on these things. Feeling good makes me want to feel better and feeling better makes me want to feel even better. It’s an upward spiral.

But none of it would give me the pleasure I am experiencing, if I wouldn’t know where my deepest pleasure comes from. If I wouldn’t appreciate myself I wouldn’t find any fun in spending money on myself. If people in my life would only like me for the roles I play, I wouldn’t be able to enjoy spending money on myself.

I am privileged because I found people for whom I am the most precious in their lives. And these are people who are not my family or life partner. It’s Bernadeane and Jim Strole. Bernie and Jim let me feel every day how much they appreciate me and how important I am to them. I am more precious to them than anything else. And they are the most precious to me as well. 

Being valued so highly and valuing Bernie and Jim so much gives me all the reasons to feel good. It gives me the desire to spend money for my personal pleasure, enjoyment and fun.

The best and most important money I spend is my monthly payment for Bernie and Jim who are the owners of People Unlimited.

I get depressed when I don’t see an increase in my payment. Bernie and Jim get better at what they do all the time and it only feels right if I pay them more as well.

Lots of people dream of a bigger house and a bigger car and a better vacation or a vacation at all. I want that too but my biggest desire is to pay Bernie and Jim more. It just makes me feel good to pay for the large value I receive from them. It is having a community where people feel so valuable and worthy that they no longer feel it is inevitable to die. Bernie and Jim are geniuses in their work. They actually bring out in people the ability to look and feel better with every year instead of breaking down and aging. I get to be with so many amazing people in their teens, 20’s, 30’s, 40’s, 50’s, 60’s, 70’s, 80’s, 90’s and soon 100’s who are so interesting, loving, true, passionate, inspiring. I only get to enjoy them because of the amazing work Bernie and Jim do. It’s more than a dream come true. It’s actually living a life that no longer needs dreams.

A promise impossible to keep

A little while ago I had a coaching session with the only coaching client I have right now – Otto. Otto seemed to be worried and weary and no matter what he did the weariness and worries persisted. He made good money, clients loved him, he happens to be my life partner for a long time now and I know I love him and adore him and treat him very well. But far beyond just me he is admired and adored and loved and built by lots and lots of people every single day. He is recognized as how invaluable he is not only for his contributions which are so important but also simply for the person he is. Otto can give a feeling that makes you feel immediately at ease and raises your spirits. I’ve seen Otto change lots of people’s lives to the better. He is just a phenomenal person and great to live with.

Yet, Otto was weary and he worried despite of is life  going really well in all areas. And not only was he worried and weary that evening when we had the coaching session, he had been worried and weary for a really long time. We had many talks around this and there seemed to be no reason for it and none of these talks made a difference. Otto’s worries and his weariness persisted. It didn’t get worse and it didn’t get better. The only thing that was interesting about it was that it persisted no matter if good things happened or bad things happened. It was just always there.

So now we had our coaching session and I asked him one question. I am lucky that Otto and I have the agreement that his coaching sessions are not confidential so I can share this. But it’s really not about Otto, it’s about something I’ve done and I know many people I know have done and it’s so common so Otto is really only an example and we should all ask ourselves this question. It was a long question and according to the coaching training it was far too long to be efficient but still I asked it.

The question I asked him was: What promises did you make in your life that you really meant when you made them but then you broke them because they simply didn’t apply any longer?

He first didn’t understand what I meant so I gave him a couple of examples. You married your first wife about 40 years ago and you promised to stay with her forever and you really meant it with all your heart then but then you divorced 17 years later and you broke that promise. Same with your children. I know that your heart promised them to be with them in a certain way when they were little but then you couldn’t keep this promise because of your divorce.

So he understood what I meant and we had a great very insightful conversation where Otto told me many areas where he had made promises. None of these promises had been casual. He had all made them with his whole heart. But then life happened and he got in touch with deeper and vaster feelings of himself. In order to live the vaster person, he had to break some of the old promises. He had a choice to keep the promises he had made no matter how true they were now or to be true to the new person who emerged from within. The new person felt to go out in the world and touch a lot of people’s life to be better. The new person was no longer just a good father, money maker and husband. The new person didn’t want a divorce but it so happened that his first wife didn’t feel the same way and the divorce inevitably happened. There were other promises that Otto had made to friends, in former work positions, to his parents and others that were true then but just simply had been outlived and replaced by new much bigger promises.

Some of the choices had been painful – like living away from his children – but overall Otto had felt good with every single one of them and was very clear that they had been the right thing to do. There was no doubt in him so why did I asked the question?

So now I asked a second question: ‘When you broke your promises, how did you acknowledge that you broke them?’ He looked at me puzzled. What do you mean? When someone makes a promise from their heart and soul and every cell is in agreement with these promises and then life happens and we grow and become bigger and we break those promises, we still have to acknowledge that we broke them. It’s critical to acknowledge them to ourselves and perhaps even to the others we made them to. But it’s mostly that we acknowledge them to ourselves: like ‘I broke that promise’. ‘I couldn’t keep it any longer because it was keeping me too small and didn’t let me be the larger person I am’.

It’s important because it set’s our heart free. It frees out soul and spirit. Promises we make are like invisible ties and they need to be cut if they no longer apply.

It was amazing to see Otto after our conversation. It was like a dark cloud lifted and I was so thankful to both of us that we could have that conversation. I was thankful to the wonderful life I am living, a life that walks free of chains we carry in our body. Chains we make but then have to be broken for us to be happier and healthier and more prosperous.

There are a lot of promises we made to others along the line of dying. Like lots of people promise each other to stay together forever and then if one person dies the other person dies soon after. Sometimes we promise this in the way we love and in our passion and we don’t even have to say a word. When we do it, it seems like the utmost expression of our love and since we adore the person so much we do it freely.

Or we promise to ourselves that we live to a certain year. Like I want to live to be 80 or some say I want to live to be 100. But then you might be 100 and it’s not been enough and you don’t want to die but that promise has been working in you for a long time and you can’t escape it now and your body breaks down. Unless you openly declare that you break the promise because it doesn’t make sense anymore, your body will follow it and make it true.

I am declaring today that any promise I’ve ever made to be true to a person will not mean that I follow them in death. They are only meant to follow them in the living. I am true to your aliveness and will always be there but will never follow anyone into death no matter how much I adore  and love them them now. That’s a promise I am making to myself right now. And I am looking for people who want to be alive with no end so this promise is always keeping us together living better in every way physically, emotionally, spirituality, mentally…. Just simply in every way.

Join us at a People Unlimited meeting here is Scottsdale and get inspired to live a life in your body now that sees no end ever. Find people like me who are sincere in living and want you to be alive with no end.

 

There is one change I have to make and I don’t want to make it…

There is one area where I haven’t been able to change. It’s an area that I have been inspired to change many times but I haven’t done it. I simply don’t do it. I know it’s the right thing to do. It feels good. I see other’s do it and it works phenomenally for them. But myself – no – I just haven’t done that change. I ask myself why but it really doesn’t matter why. I just don’t do it. I get lots of reminders every single week mostly from Bernadeane and Jim Strole why it is important even essential to make that change but still I don’t do it.

It is about my weight again. But it really isn’t just the weight it’s goes far beyond that.

So here it is…when I look at myself in the mirror I see the couple of pounds that I have too much right now and I am angry at my body for having those pounds. I literally bitch at myself for it and I am not generally a bitchy person.

What I am completely not doing is acknowledging myself for how quickly I am changing physically when I make a change in the way I eat or the way I exercise or when I do colon hydrotherapy. It never fails, I eat better and I look better. I exercise more and I look better. I clean out my colon or liver or any other organ and I look better. It happens instantly. My skins looks better, I am trimmer, my organs work better and more efficiently. It makes me happy. Every single cell of me responds so quickly. It’s miraculous. But I don’t give my organs and muscles and bones and skin any praise when they change to the better. Yes, when they work hard to get rid of the extra fat, I give my organs 0 recognition. Absolutely none.

But I am really quick in blaming my organs when I gain weight. And it’s really not the organs who are doing something wrong, it’s my actions. I overeat because I am so emotional over something. I eat the wrong things that make my colon upset. I skip meals that make me starve and it slows down my metabolism. But even though they have done nothing wrong I am blaming my organs for not working properly and putting weight back on. And all along it’s been my actions and my organs are just like slaves having to deal with it. This is something I have been doing for a very long time.

I know it’s wrong and I still haven’t changed it. It’s pathetic.

I feel like a company owner who blames their employees for not bringing in the $’s or not working as profitable as they would like but never looking at themselves considering where they have missed it in managing their company to begin with. It’s pathetic and I am that pathetic as well.

Well, it looks like it’s time to make the change. At least I can start with being honest about what is responsible for my weight gain and it’s definitely not my organs. They deserve a lot of praise. So I will not blame them any longer for something they have no choice in. I will actually take their advice once in a while and listen to what they tell me in regards to what makes their life easier. Why not have my actions work for them and stop working against them.

Find more interesting people like me who are not aging and dying and are building themselves and each other better all the time. Join us at a People Unlimited event in Scottsdale or become an out of town member and stream with us. Check us out at PeopleUnlimitedInc.com. Living without an end is great and I recommend it. Your organs will be happy if you go for it. They love when you see no end for them.

You can look good when you are over 50!

When I grew up I kept hearing ‘You will gain weight in your 40th and 50th. It’s just what happens. There is no way around it. You just live with it. I heard it from my mom and my aunts and my grandma. They all had been slim in their 20th and 30th but now in their 40’s and 50’s they had gained 20 – 40 pounds they didn’t need or want. My sister just recently visited. Same as me, she is in her 50th and she told me that she gained about 15 pounds a couple of years ago without changing anything in her daily routine. She is active all day running her coffee shop; she eats healthy and she still gained the 15 pounds and 3 dress sizes. She said ‘I can’t do anything about it. It’s just how it is.’

When I got into my 40th I was curious…would I get the pounds? From my teens on my weight always ranged between 136 and 150 pounds. I am 5.7’ and 136 pounds feels really good. You might think 150 isn’t really overweight but for me it feels that way. It means I am round around my hips and belly and I can’t wear the clothing I really like. When I look at myself in the mirror I see a wobbly layer covering up who I really am and it just feels wrong to be hiding. When I weigh 150 pounds I am also 1 or 2 dresses sizes bigger. And then last but not least…if I made it from 136 to 150 pounds, I could easily make it from 150 to 170 and so on. It is really alarming.

This is where I am different from my sister and my aunts. My sister told me that ‘without changing’ she had gained the pounds and my aunts hadn’t changed anything either when they had gained their weight. They just kept living the same way they had lived before. I am different in the way that when I am at 150 pounds I am about ready to change anything really quickly to get to my lower weight again. And the one thing that my sister and my aunts didn’t want to do – change – is what is doing the trick for me each time. And each time it’s a different change that helps me get to my weight.

In my 30th I lost weight by starting to eat 5 – 7 times a day and smaller portions. But even with eating smaller portions more often a day I gained weight again in my 40th. So I bought a horse and up’d exercising to 5 times a week. At 49 I gained weight again even with eating smaller portions and riding 5 times a week so I started to working out with Ilana (check her out at Enerjoy Fitness in Scottsdale – she is the best). I added 2 – 3 workouts a week and started writing a food diary which Ilana reviewed every week. My weight dropped from 150 to 142 pounds but I was stuck there and couldn’t get to the 136 pounds I really wanted. So I did a juice and protein shake diet with multiple hydrotherapy sessions. My colon felt cleaner than ever and I got to 136 pounds. Being so clean helped me stay under 140 pounds for over a year. But then I gained weight again and got close to 150 pounds once again. So Ilana put me on a strict 1600 calorie a day food regimen and later Ilana introduced me to Isagenix which helps me stay at a great weight – not where I want to be but great.

All this said, it’s not just one change, it’s many changes that I have made and all the changes that worked for me I kept on doing. I never went back on them. I am expecting to have to do many more changes and I am so glad I have people like Ilana who help me. I also have to thank Bernadeane and Jim Strole again since they both inspire me to constantly change and live better. Change for the better is great and it is so overlooked in our society. Staying the same is so much more common but no-one wins anything with it. We don’t progress in our body and feeling good is so wonderful. It can never be valued enough.

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They’ve got it wrong

Friday night I drove to the People Unlimited event and listened to National Public Radio. As always, I can’t remember the specific show I was listening to nor the people it was about but I remember the topic. They discussed music. One of the question that was discussed was: ‘From an evolution point of view, why was music created?’ or ‘Why did human beings create music to begin with? Was it needed for survival?’

After looking at this questions from various angles, science came up with their answer. Their answer was that it was in fact not needed for survival. And that music had been created for one reason only and that reason was pleasure.

Here is the interesting thing…many composers and musicians didn’t like the scientists’ findings. They didn’t like that their life work’s meaning was to create pleasure. For some reason it made them feel angry and devaluated.

Here is where they got it wrong: Pleasure is the most important and essential thing. I don’t see any work that could be more important than creating pleasure and wellbeing. There can never be enough of it for anyone and there should be much more of it no matter how much pleasure we already experience in our day-to-day living.

I find it pleasurable to wake-up in the morning and talk to Otto about our unlimited life. It’s pleasure to see the sun come into my bedroom. It’s my pleasure to go to work. It’s pleasurable to eat. It is pleasurable to face a challenge and master it. It is my pleasure to be alive, to feel my heart beat, to breath in air and feel my lungs fill up with it. It’s pleasurable to interact with the people I work with every day. And there is so much more…

I personally feel that creating ‘pleasure’ for another person has saved lives, has ended wars, has made people want to live longer. Making someone feel good is the most meaningful work there is. Yes, we can have money that buys us the best nutrition and gives us a luxurious roof over our head, but if we don’t feel well it means nothing. Making another person feel that their life is pure pleasure is the most important work someone could do.

And this is where Bernadeane and Jim Strole are experts. And this is why for me they are the people who do the most important work there is. They cause people to feel good about who they are. They cause people to begin feeling the value of themselves. Religion and the family structure always put a system and a right way to be as the most important thing to achieve. At work we have to achieve goals to proof our value. But nowhere we are valuable just for the unique and powerful people we are. Powerful and irreplaceable.

Bernie and Jim are the reason why my life is now pure pleasure. Like many composers and musicians have lifted my spirits with their music, Bernie and Jim have given me the best pleasure of all. They have transformed my life and they keep transforming it. And at the same time I feel I am transforming theirs. Where before my life was full of right and wrongs, it is now like a symphony of instruments playing together and producing the most beautiful sound for me and others to enjoy. It’s the music of the cells of my body who are vibrating with Bernie and Jim’s like musicians who play together and create the most beautiful sound there is. The sound of a person and a body who has no end.

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I cannot live through Otto…

Sunday morning I woke up and the first thing I felt was to call my friend Amalia in Israel. Otto was laying next to me in bed and felt to join me so he grabbed his iPad and we skyped her. Amalia was working and couldn’t talk but wanted to call back. Tuesday night – I was just about to fall asleep – we heard Otto’s iPad beep with a Skype call coming in and it was Amalia. Otto picked up and started talking and then came over to me so I could say hi as well. I was so happy to hear Amelia’s voice and it was so good to connect with her.

During the few minutes we talked Amalia mentioned that she called back because she had to talk to Otto so badly. That she needed to hear his voice. It was beautiful that she felt that way but when we hung up something didn’t feel right. When I had the feeling to call Amalia it had been very personal just from me to her and for some reason this personal connection between the 2 of us was missed.

Why did I feel it was a big deal? Why did I feel something was wrong? The reason is that I can’t live my life through Otto not even a little bit. It’s very crucial that I build my own life. It’s important that when I feel a person I go all the way and do not let Otto take over. I feel I have to go for what I feel all the way out with Otto right next to me. If I have a gut feeling to make a connection, Otto’s connection will not do even if it is happening with me right there.

I make my own money, I make my own decisions on how to spend it, I pay my own bills, I do trips without Otto just because I feel to and he doesn’t. I live my own life and yet I have the best intimacy and communication with Otto. It’s quiet amazing and so enlivening. I feel one of the reasons why I am doing so good with living with Otto in an intimate way is because I am really free in moving for what I feel and he is free as well.

But I have to admit that there is more. There are areas where I hide. I hide my feeling behind the feelings of others. I hide by not taking credit for all the things I initiate and accomplish. Not only at home even more so at work or sometimes with friends. Sometimes I feel the reason why women need so much attention is because they don’t go for the real attention. The acknowledgement for who they are and for what they accomplished. They have a hard time to stand up and say ‘I accomplished something phenomenal today. It made a real big difference.’ They usually think it’s nothing and there is no need to mention it. But then they feel needy and cranky and never seem to  get enough attention.

Bernie made a statement a couple of weeks ago saying  “It’s done! It’s accomplished! It’s a done deal that we don’t die”. I felt what she said in every cell of my body. Now I feel there is a reality to it in my day-to-day living. I feel I have to live me all the way without compromise. Every action I take or don’t take that puts me down even a little bit feels really wrong. I am thankful for it. I can’t fight with Otto for anything any longer and fights don’t even come up any longer in living without a compromise who I am.

I am so thankful to have people in my life like Bernadeane and Jim Strole who see me whole. Just being in their presence brings a clarity that makes life so easy.

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I found a short-cut…

Since I can think I have had a very tight lower back. My lower back wouldn’t necessarily hurt but I was limited in my range of motion. E.g. running was so uncomfortable that I simply cut it out of the list of things I would do. Or standing in line would hurt if it was longer than 2 minutes. It wasn’t such a big problem, since I could deal with it by simply moving around while waiting. Or sitting was uncomfortable but I looked for chairs that supported me well and I was able to cope. All of this didn’t worry me too much, since I thought it’s normal to be uncomfortable in that way and I thought most people who are not yogi’s have some discomforts every day anyways. Sometimes I would get real back pain and when this would happen I would start doing stretching exercises and go see a chiropractor and I would be fine again.

This was until last year. Last year I was doing stretching exercises every day, I was seeing a chiropractor consistently, I received massages every other week and despite all of this I started to have really bad back pain. And the back pain got worse with everything I did to get rid of it. My stretching, my adjustments from my chiropractor and the massages I got all of it made it worse and not better. I finally got through the worst of it by taking Advil and getting acupuncture. But the truth is, I never really got all the way well. I always had a little bit of pain. Sometimes it felt like it was gone but then I did a wrong move and it was back again. I was really frustrated.

About 6 weeks ago I started going to a new chiropractor. My horse had started getting adjustments from Doctor Stires and he really saw improvements. Since Doctor Stires also treated people I thought I give’ll him a try as well. What could I loose. What he suggested was decompression therapy. Decompression therapy seemed to make sense so I agreed and we started the treatment plan. After 3 weeks with 3 times a week of decompression  and adjustments he sent me home with my decompression machine and instructions to continue a big piece of the treatment plan on my own.

My new routine is very time consuming: 3 days a week I do the decompression and 3 days a week I do exercises that stretch and build muscles. The entire program takes 35 – 45 minutes a day pretty much every day of the week. That’s a lot of time to fit into my busy schedule. I thought my new chiropractor obviously hadn’t heard about the ‘shortcut’ or ‘get to your goal faster’ approach which all of us so desperately look for.

But to tell  the truth… the 35 – 45 minute routine I now have to add to my daily activities is the short-cut. I am really starting to feel a difference in my lower back. I started running a little in the morning and guess what, I get out of breath but I do not hurt – and I am only starting…

So what is a 35 – 45 minutes routine for a couple of months compared to 45 years of discomfort? It’s very little effort and a real short-cut.

Lots of people look for short-cuts at the wrong place. The real short-cut is what delivers the results. How much will my life improve every single day, 24 hours a day, for an unlimited number of more years to come with only a 35 – 45 minute investment a day right now?  I am so happy I got something that helps me and doing what it takes for it is so much fun and so worth it. It’s the real short-cut.

I love building my body, it builds my spirit and soul and wellbeing. It makes me a better person. It makes me greater for myself and others.

Where others build a career and a legacy, I build my body and I am so happy to be so successful at it and that I found people to help me with it. I have a lot to show for. It’s mostly my wellbeing and me feeling so good. What a wonderful life to live. I am so thankful to Bernie and Jim who are the most radical inspiration for me to do so. It’s essential for me to have Bernie and Jim and so many others in my life who show me a life that is so well worth living, a life that sees no end.

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